Waking Up From The Darkness

Today was a very special day for me.  I haven't felt this good in years!  Usually when I wake up in the morning I lay there for quite awhile and debate getting out of bed at all.  All of this has now changed for the good.  I have what is called BiPolar syndrome and am not the only one in the world with it.  I am suppose to be taking medication each day, several times a day to help manage it.

Back in June of 09 I was so sick and tired of taking pills everyday, not only for my BiPolar but my Chron's as well.  I decided one of these had to go.  I then made the stupid decision of throwing all of my mental health medication in the trash.  I went without it all of this time until the 1st of this month.  I was in the deepest an darkest depression I have ever been in and swallowed my pride and got help.  I was perscribed new medication that had some severe side effects and made me slur my words, and we all know that doing talk radio and that just doesent mix.  I was like this for a week but just knew that it would get better and I would adjust to it.  Well today that happend!  I woke up feeling so alive and ready to take on the day just like I use to.  I wasn't sluring, stumbling, or glassy eyed.  I was in a very good mood and everyone around me noticed a  drastic change and all of this happened overnight.

Time For Change

Well the holiday season is over and we are all being given a new beginning.  It is only 4 days in to the new year and I have made many changes already.  Christmas was really hard on me this year as I really missed my parents.  I haven't talked to either of them in over 10 years.  This year I decided to break that cycle by
writing them a letter, not a text, email, or ecard, but a actual letter.