Waking Up From The Darkness

Today was a very special day for me.  I haven't felt this good in years!  Usually when I wake up in the morning I lay there for quite awhile and debate getting out of bed at all.  All of this has now changed for the good.  I have what is called BiPolar syndrome and am not the only one in the world with it.  I am suppose to be taking medication each day, several times a day to help manage it.

Back in June of 09 I was so sick and tired of taking pills everyday, not only for my BiPolar but my Chron's as well.  I decided one of these had to go.  I then made the stupid decision of throwing all of my mental health medication in the trash.  I went without it all of this time until the 1st of this month.  I was in the deepest an darkest depression I have ever been in and swallowed my pride and got help.  I was perscribed new medication that had some severe side effects and made me slur my words, and we all know that doing talk radio and that just doesent mix.  I was like this for a week but just knew that it would get better and I would adjust to it.  Well today that happend!  I woke up feeling so alive and ready to take on the day just like I use to.  I wasn't sluring, stumbling, or glassy eyed.  I was in a very good mood and everyone around me noticed a  drastic change and all of this happened overnight.



I am now getting my life back together and organized and feel like I have a place and purpose in this world again.  I will never go off of the medication again as I missed SO much by doing so.  Sure ill have some side effects here and there but they far outweigh what I went through all of those months.  It' s funny to say, but I am actually seeing colors again, if that makes sense at all.  I have a lot of people to thank for this new me and or their support and most of all being there through the bad times.  You will be seeing even more from me know as I have began writing articles again and more projects that I have missed.  Going through this was dark and now there is light so please take my advice and listen to your doctor and most importantly yourself, when you are at rock bottom.  You just may be suprised just how easy it can be to live once again.

Until next post...